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Thursday, January 08, 2004
Conscious Astral Projections
Posted at 03:29 am by S3TH
First Conscious Projection
1/7/96 First conscious Out of body experience...
My first realized out-of-body happened January 7th, 1996. I had been journaling my dreamtime experiences for the previous four months. They had become increasingly vivid and lengthy. I had been reading Robert Monroe’s "JOURNEYS OUT OF THE BODY". I had made several attempts, using alert-relaxation techniques, to no avail. I had also been keeping a OBE workbook documenting other techniques I had tried. I was turned on to "THE ART OF DREAMING" by a friend and enjoyed it thoroughly. After attempting to project using techniques in "THIRTY DAYS TO AN OUT-OF-BODY", I decided to come up with a technique of my own, using what Carlos had done, to awaken himself to his dreaming, as a basis. (Looking at his hands)
I wrote on the back of my hand, Is This A Dream. On the inside of the same hand (left) I wrote a big C with a smaller wr inside the C. This was to refer to Conscious waking reality. During that evening, at work, every time I saw the back of my left hand I would ask myself the question written there. After asking the question I would try to change something I saw, (a sign, chair, person, etc.) by my mere thoughts alone. If there was no change I would open my hand and remind myself that it was only conscious waking reality. I must have done this forty to fifty times during my shift. At one point I recall promising myself that should I find myself aware of my dream I would then do some dream therapy to help with my current issues. (Later on I found out my technique was a variation of reality checks I have read elswhere since)
At some point the next morning, while dreaming, I looked at my hand. There was writing there but it wasn't, is this a dream. I had the feeling that it was of a profound nature and tried to read it. Unfortunately the writing blurred to my vision. Then I realized I was dreaming. My first instinct was to raise my arms up and take off flying. My arms stretched upward, (they were light blue with white lights dancing around inside them) and as I was about to take off I remembered the promise I made to myself.
I found myself lying in a bed. A woman entered the room with a clipboard. She wore glasses, a mid-length black skirt and white blouse. Her composure was that of a professional. As I looked at her I noticed she had small breasts so I said bigger bust. They seemed to jut out a bit further so I said bigger again three more times. She looked very ruffled by this and I realized I was being very base.
Before I could apologize for my behavior I was suddenly floating above my bed. I looked down to where I slept and saw a very vague figure in the bed. I drifted in closer as I had wished I could tell if it was my body. I drifted in and looked very closely at how my body was positioned in the bed so I could verify that this experience was real and not just a dream. I was lying on my left side. I reached down with my astral hand and grabbed my physical ankle. I felt as if my body was stirring due to my having disturbed it. This led to the fear of what would happen if my body awakened without my consciousness being present. I instantly began to feel as if I was being sucked back into my body. It seemed as if I was having a bit of difficulty with the reentry process at first. |
I opened my physical eyes and was instantly alert. No grogginess as is usual for me when I return from Dreamtime. I grabbed my dream journal and recorded the experience. As I was writing I felt two separate emotions. The first was excitement at having finally achieved my goal. The second was disappointment at having let my fear cut the experience short. The only part of the experience that seemed off was the position I was sleeping in. While astral I saw my body lying on its left side. When I returned I noticed that I was lying on my right side.
The residual affect of this was the realization that my consciousness would continue beyond my physical demise. No longer did I have to rely on faith. I knew, without doubt, that I would go on.
Posted at 04:22 am by S3TH
Personal Projection Workbook
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Pardon me while I digress a bit further to 12/28/95 logging techniques and events which preceded my first projection... |
12/28/95 Day one...
I placed a candle halfway between where I was sitting and a full length mirror. It was low enough to keep from obscuring the view of my face. It was close quarters so the mirror was only around a foot and a half away from me. During the exercise you look at your image, then close your eyes and picture your image in your mind. When I would return my attention from inward to the mirror, (open eyes), I would drift forward like I was following my attention. It was an unconscious maneuver until I recognized I was doing it. It was as if my body was trying to follow my attention. At times while I studied myself in the mirror I felt as if my body was alien to me. At times it seemed hallucinogenic. My body and (face especially) seemed to waver and change. It was a little bit scary in a way.
I guess thinking that your true self is piloting your body and knowing it are two worlds apart. A gap I intend to bridge.
Stopped in middle of second experiment as I was drifting off to sleep. Did not want to risk it with heater and lamp on. Read Monroe's first 10 to 20 pages. The vibrations he experienced before having his first OBE's sound familiar. Christmas night, medicine wheel in Arizona '89 and healing circle four months prior.
I am very excited about this experiment. I know it will be successful and will lead to greater knowledge of my true nature and self-discovery. Day one feels smashingly successful.
I affirm: Self discovery and search for truth can only increase with out of body experiences.
12/28/95 Day two...
I felt the currents as they went through my body, relaxing it as they came. The imagination is, by far, our most powerful asset.
Became much more aware of outside noises without being annoyed as I have become while trying to sleep or meditate. I felt as if I was tied down or pressure kept me from being able to move. Felt tightness around solar plexus. Couldn't call it pain but it definitely was not comfortable. I imagined it might be resistance and infused the S. P. chakra with white light. Did not have a lot of concentration focused toward it after that.
My throat became very dry in the same way it does while meditating. I imagined myself going to visit Mom & Jim, sister, father, Anastasia, Ben, Zac, and then Stacy and Joe. I could imagine Stacy and Joe having a conversation about me over lunch. It revolved around how hard it was for them to be completely pleased with their service after being waited on by me. (Ego or what?)
All in all it was a very pleasant experience. At one point I felt, in my heart area, as if I had just returned.
12/30/95 Day three...
Did exercise at the South Park mall. Went to Walden book store and read some then took seat in main entranceway. I sat on bench facing Christmas tree. Moved to walking portion after around 15-20 minutes. Hard to say as time was fairly unimportant.
Circled mall 2-3 times. Went into two dept. stores. Unsure which ones they were as attention was on hearing. Went into arcade twice. What a difference. An explosion of sounds. All in all quite an exercise. It is amazing how many sounds I don't notice due to over-reliance on vision for most sensory input.
Three songs I remember being played on PA system during exercise. I just called (to say I love you)-Stevie Wonder.
You got to love someone-Elton John. You were just a face in the crowd?-Tom Petty. The last one I was even moved to sing along with twice before reminding myself to concentrate on exercise. (Must have some significance).
Had only thirty minutes for exercise before I had to be at work. Brought currents up into thighs before I left. Was gone only 5-10 minutes. Came back when Calvin closed door to his truck. I know I left but I was not consciously aware of trip. It's only a matter of time now. I am sure that exercises & Monroe book will help me reach my goal, which will in turn expand my knowledge and view of reality/realities.
I am so excited. 1996 will be a very eventful/insightful year.
12/30/95 Day three...
Did exercise at the South Park mall. Went to Walden book store and read some then took seat in main entranceway. I sat on bench facing Christmas tree. Moved to walking portion after around 15-20 minutes. Hard to say as time was fairly unimportant.
Circled mall 2-3 times. Went into two dept. stores. Unsure which ones they were as attention was on hearing. Went into arcade twice. What a difference. An explosion of sounds. All in all quite an exercise. It is amazing how many sounds I don't notice due to over-reliance on vision for most sensory input.
Three songs I remember being played on PA system during exercise. I just called (to say I love you)-Stevie Wonder.
You got to love someone-Elton John. You were just a face in the crowd?-Tom Petty. The last one I was even moved to sing along with twice before reminding myself to concentrate on exercise. (Must have some significance).
Had only thirty minutes for exercise before I had to be at work. Brought currents up into thighs before I left. Was gone only 5-10 minutes. Came back when Calvin closed door to his truck. I know I left but I was not consciously aware of trip. It's only a matter of time now. I am sure that exercises & Monroe book will help me reach my goal, which will in turn expand my knowledge and view of reality/realities.
I am so excited. 1996 will be a very eventful/insightful year.
Posted at 04:39 am by S3TH
Second Conscious Projection
Conscious Astral Projections
Allright, let's spring forward to 1/10/96...
| Second fully conscious AP |
I had just come back from a dream...
I felt myself hovering between dream state and wakefulness.
If feels like a transitional state of awareness. I was in a state, aware of my body but not yet awake. I willed myself out of my body. I felt the separation, (awesome). Once I was out I tried to open my eyes. I could not make out anything so I tried to rotate. I still could not make out much so I put my arms out in front of me to look at my arms. They looked like my normal arms and hands, except when I started to really try and get a good look I instantly saw them stretch out in front of me. I was off.
I felt a rush like I was being taken somewhere. I thought all right take me where I need to go. I didn't get very far when I thought I should not be straying too far from my body. I felt like I did a 180 at that point, (what a rush), and as I was heading back I wondered how I would find my way back. I realized at that moment that all I had to do was think back in the physical and I would be.
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Reentry went smoothly. Once securely in physical I decided I would try it again. It was at this point that I realized my arms had fallen asleep from being crossed and laid on funny. Decided to scrap second attempt and get this recorded.
Posted at 04:42 am by S3TH
Third Conscious Projection
Conscious Astral Projections
Leaping forward now to 3/17/98...
Meditated twice. Once right after lunch. Once right before going to sleep.
I recall the ringing in my ears, signaling the arrival of the vibrational state. I invited it to continue and spread. I fell into a light sleep. I had a very realistic dream that seemed very close to waking consciousness. Upon realizing I was in a dream state I shifted to my body. I realized I was in the perfect state for separation. All sense of fear was gone. I just recall the desire to separate.
I lifted my astral arms up out of my physical arms. Instead of wondering how I would get the rest of the way out, I just naturally grabbed something and pulled the rest of the way out. I seemed to have pulled to the left and kind of rolled out. I remember thinking I must be sticking partway through my trailer wall.
I wondered where I should go. I decided to try to go to Saturn. I recall seeing a large amount of space. Stars were everywhere. Then I switched to a pure black scene that felt like a remote view. I was heading towards a spiral galaxy that appeared to be the Milky Way. I recall thinking that now I was back in my body and seeing with just a portion of my consciousness.
Then my consciousness returned to my body. I separated again. This time I willed myself in the living room area of the trailer. I thought I would try again to get to Saturn. I remember asking my Spirit Guides to help. I remember getting close and seeing a fuzzy outline of Saturn getting closer. |
I need to remember to ask for "clarity now" next time. I also need to clarify, in my mind, what it is I wish to accomplish. I had many thoughts as to what I could do but I believe my desire should be stronger. I will seek to be with my I am presence next time and seek guidance for my next phase.
There was an overall natural feeling to this experience. I know I must have been trying to hard or over thinking it.
Posted at 04:45 am by S3TH
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