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12/28/95 Day one...
I placed a candle halfway between where I was sitting and a full length mirror. It was low enough to keep from obscuring the view of my face. It was close quarters so the mirror was only around a foot and a half away from me. During the exercise you look at your image, then close your eyes and picture your image in your mind. When I would return my attention from inward to the mirror, (open eyes), I would drift forward like I was following my attention. It was an unconscious maneuver until I recognized I was doing it. It was as if my body was trying to follow my attention. At times while I studied myself in the mirror I felt as if my body was alien to me. At times it seemed hallucinogenic. My body and (face especially) seemed to waver and change. It was a little bit scary in a way. I guess thinking that your true self is piloting your body and knowing it are two worlds apart. A gap I intend to bridge. Stopped in middle of second experiment as I was drifting off to sleep. Did not want to risk it with heater and lamp on. Read Monroe's first 10 to 20 pages. The vibrations he experienced before having his first OBE's sound familiar. Christmas night, medicine wheel in Arizona '89 and healing circle four months prior. I am very excited about this experiment. I know it will be successful and will lead to greater knowledge of my true nature and self-discovery. Day one feels smashingly successful. I affirm: Self discovery and search for truth can only increase with out of body experiences. 12/28/95 Day two...
I felt the currents as they went through my body, relaxing it as they came. The imagination is, by far, our most powerful asset. Became much more aware of outside noises without being annoyed as I have become while trying to sleep or meditate. I felt as if I was tied down or pressure kept me from being able to move. Felt tightness around solar plexus. Couldn't call it pain but it definitely was not comfortable. I imagined it might be resistance and infused the S. P. chakra with white light. Did not have a lot of concentration focused toward it after that. My throat became very dry in the same way it does while meditating. I imagined myself going to visit Mom & Jim, sister, father, Anastasia, Ben, Zac, and then Stacy and Joe. I could imagine Stacy and Joe having a conversation about me over lunch. It revolved around how hard it was for them to be completely pleased with their service after being waited on by me. (Ego or what?) All in all it was a very pleasant experience. At one point I felt, in my heart area, as if I had just returned. 12/30/95 Day three...
Circled mall 2-3 times. Went into two dept. stores. Unsure which ones they were as attention was on hearing. Went into arcade twice. What a difference. An explosion of sounds. All in all quite an exercise. It is amazing how many sounds I don't notice due to over-reliance on vision for most sensory input. Three songs I remember being played on PA system during exercise. I just called (to say I love you)-Stevie Wonder. You got to love someone-Elton John. You were just a face in the crowd?-Tom Petty. The last one I was even moved to sing along with twice before reminding myself to concentrate on exercise. (Must have some significance).
I am so excited. 1996 will be a very eventful/insightful year. 12/30/95 Day three...
Circled mall 2-3 times. Went into two dept. stores. Unsure which ones they were as attention was on hearing. Went into arcade twice. What a difference. An explosion of sounds. All in all quite an exercise. It is amazing how many sounds I don't notice due to over-reliance on vision for most sensory input. Three songs I remember being played on PA system during exercise. I just called (to say I love you)-Stevie Wonder. You got to love someone-Elton John. You were just a face in the crowd?-Tom Petty. The last one I was even moved to sing along with twice before reminding myself to concentrate on exercise. (Must have some significance).
I am so excited. 1996 will be a very eventful/insightful year. |
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